(Part I in Self Portrait and Poetry)

Moon

As she rises
I can feel myself
Even more
Than in the light of the day
I feel the mystic
The slightly hidden
The pull of magic
She is sending to me
There are no words
For the feeling inside
Looking up to her
In awe of her magnificence
I get closer to my core
To the magic inside
The mystical touch of this world
That shows me the truth
Of what I am
And everything there is
Just one more glimpse
Before I lay to rest
So I can carry this feeling
To the day ahead
And may it never end

Dark Night and Light Soul

To become the
Light in the dark
Is your purpose
Is your choice
You cannot expect
To become the
Brightest light
Without experiencing
The darkness first
How can it be
That the ones
Who have suffered
The most
But are willing
To fight
For their survival
In the end
Will be more
Satisfied
More happy
And joyful
Than the ones
Who seem to
Have it all
Figured out
Yet are so
Empty inside
When you
Become
Your own light
In the darkness
There will be
Nothing left
But you
Yourself
And the world
To enjoy
And experience
Without fear
Without shame
Without separation
Just purity
Love
And affection
The nothingness
Inside you
Reveals your true nature
Who you are
Is who I am
Don’t fight the darkness
Stop searching for the light
And everything will unfold
Right in front of you
Sleep well
My child
Don’t worry to fall
Into the deepest
And most beautiful
Dreams
‚Cause when you’ll
Wake up
You have found yourself
In paradise
On earth

Fragility

It’s very easy to judge someone without knowing their whole story, without knowing everything they’ve been going through in their whole life.

The human experience can be very harsh sometimes and if I learned one thing through trauma it is the fragility of our humanity.

We have to learn as individuals (especially us empaths and highly sensitive persons) how to live in a world build on the foundation of competition and self destruction.
We have to learn how to walk the road together and see each other as inspiration instead of concurrence.

Our vulnerability is the gateway to our deepest connection with ourselves and others.
Our fragility is the bridge from our divinity to our humanity.

To be fully understood, fully heard and fully seen is what we yearn the most.

Learning to feel ourselves fully, understand ourselves fully, learning to heal ourselves fully so we won’t pass our wounds to future generations, not passing them onto the earth which we call home might be the bravest thing we can do.

Connection rather than loneliness will save us all.
Healing ourselves means healing the world too.

November Nostalgy

When darkness comes
And the sun is setting
Are you afraid of the dark
Or do you welcome it
With open arms
What does living mean to you
Staying safe
And tight in a box
Or breaking out of the cage
You have created for yourself
Your whole life
What is your purpose
Why did you come here
To survive
Or to thrive
The better you feel
The more you have to give
The less you are holding on
To old stories
And a skin that has become
Too shabby to wear
The light that shines through
Under the layers of dust
Can only be revealed
By shedding them off
So remember your light
Even in the darkest of days
And trust the unfolding
Of your truest of ways

Stillness

The stillness of winter
Let’s its wings unfold
To let you recognize
The stillness within you
When winter lies its curtains down
On rivers, seas and land
Let it cover
What you want to let go of
The year has passed
Now’s the time
To reflect
On what happened
Or didn’t happen
No matter how long
You’ve been waiting
For change
It’s always there
Welcome it
With open arms
Surrender to it
The stillness
Of winter
Let it carry you
Safely and easily through
Your life that’s to come

Night Fall

When night falls
Darkness comes
And a smooth silence
Lays the world to rest
Seek your own silence
Home is
Within you
Breathe
Connect to your heart
And you no longer
Need to search
For a higher purpose
Than simply existing
You are enough
As you are
Everything else is extra
Every step you take
A small brush stroke
On life’s canvas
Night Fall
Will bring you home
To yourself
Invite the silence in
Which you are
Don’t be afraid anymore
Of your own company
Your story
Is as beautiful
As your soul
We all got our purpose
On this great earth
What is yours?

Depth

I wonder
Why we are so afraid of depth
The world has become
So superficial
So fast
And empty
That rarely few take the time
To seek a deeper meaning
In life
Are you running too fast
Or moving too slow
Passing by each moment
As if you would live forever?
Maybe if you had just one more day
To live
You would add more value
To your day
Share the love
Share your heart
Because noone knows
If tomorrow comes
We won’t live forever
So appreciate your time
And energy
Value yourself
And your loved ones
Enjoy the small things
Every glimpse of sunlight
And every step on earth
Enjoy the night
The scent of the water
And the reflection of the moon
With gratitude
And humility
For the great gift
Of life itself

Waves against the shore

When the certainty of who you are meant to be becomes stronger than all self doubts and anxiety, stronger than what is holding you back, a peaceful and fulfilling silence begins to arise within you.

The storms and waves of life will still crash against your shore, but it won’t move you as deeply as before.

Compassion and love occur when we learn to hold ourselves in our darkest times and dare to forgive – both ourselves and those who have hurt us.

In the end – what choice do we really have?
To forever live our lives in the shadow even though we know we are so much more than we deem?

The pain can be our mud to rise above as the most beautiful lotus.
Aware of its beauty from inside to outside, aware of its truth, there to bloom on its own and for others as well.

Darkness of the Soul

Intimacy needs darkness.
Depth needs grace.
Growth needs investigation.
Energy needs rechargement.
Humanness needs chaos.
Peace needs silence.
Art needs inspiration.
Our soul needs art.
Darkness needs light.
Light needs shadow.
We need each other.
The world needs us.
Nature needs humans.
Humans need nature.
Expansion needs space.
The space needs the earth.
Earth needs water.
Water needs clarity.
Fire needs fuel.
The air needs lightness.
The soul needs light.
The soul needs darkness.
The night needs the moon.
The day needs the sun.

The darkness of our soul is the intimacy we feel with ourselves.
We feel with each other.
We feel with the earth.
It’s the basis of who we are.
So why do we fear this darkness?
Can we invite it in instead?
Make peace with it and allow it to expand, to grow?
What will happen, when we let go of the fear?
The fear of intimacy, of depth, of vulnerability?

What can we become, when we become one with our darkness?

Resilience

Resilience
Is the space
We allow ourselves
To be in
When change
Is inevitable
The moment
We let go
Of the need
To hold on
What’s lost
What’s gone
When we allow
Ourselves to grow
Grow stronger
And wiser
Than before
Not because
We were
Not good enough
But because change
Will always come
Growth
Will always come
Resilience
Gives room
For us
To breathe life
Into our expansion
Nothing is
Ever missing
All is there
Can you feel it
Already?